Tuesday, May 3, 2011
A BIG Attempt
It is said, "a picture paints a thousand words," which leads me to say, "a thousand words does not paint a picture." From my last post I reiterated the knowledge that I have much to say; but when it comes to expressing certain things in my life, well, I seem to be lacking words. Actually it's not a 'lack' for words but more of a 'lack' for articulating the words. There are just some things which I could ramble on and on about and BIG Fearless Painting happens to be one of those things, but the rambling would not begin to express the pure, simple, authentic, joy of the journey.
The Psalmist wrote, "...As the deer pants for steams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God...When can I go and meet with God?...put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him...deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me. By day the Lord directs His love, at night His song is with me, a prayer to the God of my life..." (parts from chapter 42 new International Version)
I have always been one to 'pant' for, to 'thirst' for God, the Source, the Creator. And, it seems, I can never get enough, my thirst remains unquenched. And where is it we go to find the Great One? This is a difficult, yet simple, question, as the Source is just that, the Source of all, found within Mother Earth, a child's laugh, the storms of life...found within, thoughout, all around...and most importantly, found deep within in ourselves, at our source...our souls...we are children of the Source, children of the Universe, children of God...we are created beings made in the likeness and image of the Great Creator thus we are creative 'children'...
See, again, words, ramblings, and yet, am I even beginning to make it at all clear, getting close to what I'm attempting to express? Can you feel anything of what I'm feeling? And, why the video? I borrowed it from www.dirtyfootprints-studio.com which is where you can find BIG Fearless Painting but it, the video, also gives a since of what BIG has opened up for me.
Hopefully you watched the video once already. I want you to watch it again and ask yourself who would you be if you were there, on that beach, with those bubbles. Would you be the bubble, inside the bubble, or the bubble maker? Would you be the air or sand which feels the impact, the caress of the bubbles? Would you be the 'grown ups' making efforts to remain reserved or efforts to capture the moment? Would you be one of the parents who seeks to watch the joy of your child playing with the bubble? Or, would you be the children, who intuitively know to play with and within the bubbles? Hopefully you would choose to be any one of these elements, to experience, to witness, from each perspective the moment.
While we as 'grown ups' tend to want to be 'grown up' and capture the moment, have we forgotten that the best way to capture a moment is to become part of the moment, without over thought, without delay. The moment will pop, be gone and we don't want to miss the opportunity to dance, sing, rejoice, praise, create... we don't want to miss the opportunity to simply be part of and fully into the moment.
This is where and what my BIG journey has opened up for me. It has become an ingredient for this call of deep unto deep (which, by the way, is phase II of BIG; DEEP) it is a drink along the way, it is part of my song, my praise, my prayer, my meeting with God, my entry back to intuitiveness. A thousand words cannot paint the picture but a painted picture may paint a thousand words.
Simply today, I will grab my bubbles (if you don't have any they are only about a buck at any department or grocery store), I will spend time with Mother Earth, I will touch a juicy paint brush to a dry sheet of poster board and express, become part of the moment. No thousand words, no over thought, nope, just simply me and my Creator, my Source, my God even if it is for only a blissful moment, then it shall be.